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Golden DreamsDreams falling from my hand
Like small golden grains of sand.
I watch them, sparkle and shine,
Knowing they will never be mine.
They're stolen, one by one
Shot far from me by a gun.
One was plucked apart by love,
Another kidnapped by a dove.
Hate is sharp and tears them-
Pain's strength has crushed them.
I just watch them all,
In their golden waterfall.
EscapeI am a blurry reflection
In a mirror cracked by time.
I seem to have an infection,
Where everything has to rhyme.
I leave myself disgusted-
My case totally busted
I don't know what I see.
My mind is horribly twisted
How can I have existed?
I don't know who I'll be.
A heart in my hands
Slowly crushed by these bands
Of stubborn hate and fear.
A road of my own
Full of hopes that I've sown
Gently washed down by my tears.
What is there to say?
How can I escape
This prison I helped create?
I am: PastI am always there,
And when you turn to stare,
I flit across your mind.
I haunt your dreams,
I give you peace
Our stories intertwine.
You cannot erase
So turn and face
The already written line.
You forget me-
You resent me
I am your darkest fear.
And though you may pretend,
I am here.
I am a rainstorm- I am the sun
I am a moonbeam
I am one.
I am past.
I'm My Own GhostI'm still in a violet haze,
Lost in the murmur of yesterdays.
Making a countdown of all the years
Tired of constantly fighting the tears.
My life moves on but my heart does not-
It refuses to simply be caught.
Remembers soft touches, a brush of a cheek
So many things that make it feel weak.
"Own person, own life"; They say it is mine
But right here is where I draw the line.
I gave it to him and he took it to keep,
He is who he is, for you sow what you reap.
Ghost, they call me, for so I am
Nothing more than the common man.
Now I lay me down to die,
So another is born and here I will lie.
If DeathWhat if death,
Was one breath-
How would you live,
Through your last day?
Scream to the world
"I love you",
So all may know it's true?
Spend all your money,
Or save it for a miniature you?
Close your eyes in shock-
Then live your life again,
Longing for one more word to pen?
Smile with your family,
Hide the time from them?
Do you desperately pull,
Yank at the hourglass
Glued firmly to the table?
Does your mind go blank,
If death is only,
Of Two Different WorldsA world that is black and a world that is white,
One that is daring and willing to fight.
Another that's humble and quiet and true-
One that is me, and one that is you.
You, who were raised to be silent and calm
Crush all your hopes in the fist of your palm.
Never quite letting your heart to be free,
Wearing the glasses that make you not see.
I was the one who was timid and shy,
Raised to be gentle, taught to be kind.
Learning each day how to be who I am
I lock my feelings in tight as a clam.
But you have become someone scared as a deer
Instead of the world, you can only see fear.
Anger is something that you took in stride-
Something that you've simply learned how to hide.
They say I'm wild and a bit off my head,
Because I'm the kind that will not be led.
I make my own path, trying to fly
Letting them see that I can still cry.
These two worlds, so different, have come to a clash
And we've made a decision that seems quite rash.
But what has happened is, and what will be is done-
Don't Say a Word (71)Hush little darling
Don't say a word.
I'm about to tell you
Something no one's heard.
It's not quite a story-
It's not quite a lie
Yet the characters inside it
Have always been mine.
Once upon a morning,
Twice upon a dream-
Never trust the blind men
They're never what they seem.
I know that I've scared you,
I know you want to hide
But it is now a part of you-
It's written deep inside.
Quiet precious secret,
You can't say a word.
Quickly fly away now,
Silent as the-
I am: BeautyI use the world as my stepping stool,
It's simply a tool-
Nothing more than millions of fools.
I cloud their thoughts,
I run their minds.
Filling their morals with spots-
Full of stains and blots.
Their hearts are cold-
Full of stones.
Their minds of clay,
With which I play.
I am anger, I am pain
I am envy, I am rage.
I am lust, I am hate-
I am beauty.
A Teacup Heart (94)My heart is like a teacup,
Full of cracks and ridged seams.
So many times I wake up
From a world of broken dreams
So close to breaking-
Will I be shattered again?
I watch the pieces shaking
How many times can they mend?
I blame you and you blame me,
And it goes on back and forth.
How many times do I have to see
That you are my true north?
If I pick up our teacups in pieces,
And we put them together with rhyme
We'd never smooth out all the creases,
But we'd stand the test of time.
Far GoneFind a way to disappear.
Undo my life.
Couldn't I just slip away?
I need to be alone anyway.
Time, has a way,
A way of leaving you behind.
Life's too short.... they say.
Life is too long.
BurdenThe cuffs get tighter,
I try to wiggle free.
I can no longer be a fighter,
With these chains bounding me.
This burden is so heavy,
I can’t bear it anymore.
More and more I am ready,
To die forevermore.
I don’t know what to do,
I’m sick of living with this pain.
I need some help through,
pills, razors, or just about anything.
The cuffs are getting tighter,
I just want to be free.
I am no longer a fighter,
These chains have overpowered me.
It's enveloping my heart
And tainting my soul
I've been corrupted by the dark
A new power to behold
I'm too far gone already
Just give in
Accepting my tragedy
A new path will begin
Transform into what I dreamed of
No longer afraid
The road to peace will be victorious
A triumph so great
I closed my eyes for the last time / I watched it all disappear
I left behind my old life / I've become what I've feared
I know this path is one that very few desire
But what's done is done
Never again will I look into a mirror
For my darkness and I have become one
It's what I've always wanted
So I tried to cast aside my guilt
But I will always be haunted
From the innocent hope I killed
It's blinding my morals
And embracing my greed
I left behind my sorrow
And gained a new kind of belief
I've done it, I've really done it
Dawning this new dusk
I've made it into the darkness
The light was never enough
From tranquil ignorance
Into the great spanning ocean
Of triumph and sorrow
I embarked young
For the stern waters of old
And streamed into the unknown
Swerving the entire way
With each hour I trudge along
As surrounding beauty diminishes
Behind each rugged mile claimed
Bright forgotten hues
Decay in each newly conquered hillside
The quest abates
And the watchful sun pulls away
In a cold exodus, unforeseen
The trees are uprooted
All brush and grass is torn up
Leaving the earth to diminish in solitude
In a somber yet blissful parting
All I can do
Is unravel into the blank abyss
Given to the hollow void
With tender, caution and care
Wish Upon A Scar
Wish Upon A Scar
Shades of words can strengthen...walls
But embodiments of lies can flaw the very same...cause
A droplet of water lasted me a thousand ages
For I have traveled inside my mind
I documented a thousand faces
That ended up turning blind eyes
The lifeblood of faith kept urging me to wait
While I became a statue deprived of light
and the life I once called mine
Numb sounds flow / Passions let go
Clinging onto footprints / A coward's instinct
Uncensored immunity is a curse
For tragedy teaches weakness
Nothing will be of any worth
As love and fear will be without consequences
Once upon a song / You were a flower
Your petals became undone / Gone now and forever
A taste of your grace got me through a thousand fates
I have not forgotten the abyss of your bliss
But it broke me over and over a thousand ways
I RememberI remember everything
And I wish they would go away
These memory in my head
And these dreams, they are too real
I feel everything
The tears falling down my cheek
The sins pouring down my hands
The innocence washed away
I regret everything
And I know you do too
For trying, even when it fell apart
I still care, for me it wasn't the end
Things just do not go as planned
The harder you hold on to something
The more you suffocate it
But you won't notice
Till it's dead and gone
On The InsideOn the inside I'm alone
In my head there is chaos
On the outside I'm free
I'm calm and just me
I hang myself everyday
Under my skin I kill myself
What you see is a smile
What you hear is a laugh
A lost soul looking for a purpose
What does it expect to find?
Answers or the truth?
Cause am I really alive?
The sacrifice.the ocean sings
the bluebirds fly
the shells will scream
their silent cry
when divers come
to get the pearl
you raised so long
for a little girl
five years you were working
for the final move
get it ready in time!
For the final approve
he CRACKS you
he SMACKS you
he HACKS you
and you were just shielding
your little pearl
and while you are sighing
the diver is smiling
and while you are dying
the princess is crying
'cause you had to die
for the princess' delight.
.:Seasons of Desperation:.Autumn approaches and the plants begin to die,
Leaves fall with the whisper of a goodbye.
And I miss you
Abundant brown turns to lonely white,
As Winter snow stirs a chilling fright.
And I miss you
Succulent Spring brings life to us all,
Yet why does it leave me feeling ever so small?
And I miss you
Finally, Summer comes around again,
Feels as though nothing can be obtained.
And as always,
I miss you
You will return,
But when you decide,
Is my concern.
Time is by far the most awful thing,
When you must wait for your love again.
This pitied girl of pessimism and dread,
Will only rest fully,
When her hunger is fed.
Love is the food,
That she craves for the most,
And without it her heart wanders,
In a precarious hope.
So as the seasons come and go,
And your heart grows hungry too,
Remember that I am lying here,
Waiting just for you.
And I miss you
Please- Don't leave me, please.
I can't seem to breathe,
Unless you're here with me.
I know you say you're there,
But do you really care?
Is that love on your face,
Am I truly safe?
You got a hold on me.
I'm down on one knee,
Please listen to this plea!
You see, you hold my heart,
And that's only the start.
Not even the worst part-
Am I truly safe?
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